Dunno what happened?

Short version, I've lost my mojo, luck and the lot.

I've not been out much at all over the last few months. Then when I have everything has seemed to conspire against me. Weather conditions, shift patterns, loads of factors and when I've managed to get out on the bank I've been having the odd nightmare session. One saw me have two almighty birds nests, a lost lure, a super sharp jig head embedded just under my finger nail, which wouldn't stop bleeding for well over half an hour and then to cap that session off my multiplier packed in. All that in about 50 minutes on the bank, which of course ended in a blank as I didn't get much time fishing in all that. I packed up sharply and called it a day on that occasion as I knew I was beaten.

So in a time that I really should have been busy bagging the perch or switching serious to pike, which are in super condition this time of year and put up a great scrap, I somehow managed to have a stinker. I keep trying to stay positive and get my arse back in to gear but something always kicks me in the teeth. Take today for example. I'm sat on my backside typing a blog with nothing to write when the plan all week was to get out and have a full day on the lures and baits. However, early Friday the rains up in the hills made their way down to the river I was to fish and so that venue was off. Another venue hasn't been producing and then when you add to that confidence being low I couldn't think of anywhere to give a try and in the end didn't bother. I just kept thinking I'll put in loads of effort again for no reward.

Confidence breeds confidence of course and if you're catching you get out and keep at it and any poor efforts are easily forgotten. I'm on the opposite end though where every poor effort is magnified ten times as I'm not getting out enough to swing it all back in my favour. I still keep thinking about fishing but in the end simply don't bother to squeeze in a session when I really shouldn't or when the weather is against me like I normally would. I'm not getting up early to fish for a few hours before getting back to family duties later in the day, I just have an extra couple hours in bed. Neither am I really bothering with the forums, apart from checking the "For Sale" sections in case there's a bargain to be had. But when I do have a quick look everyone seems to be catching monsters and instead of making me want to fish I just feel sorry for myself. The other week our lass and the kids were under the weather, all having a bad cold. I couldn't even catch that!

I know deep down that I've still had a stonking year of fishing, one that I would be very happy of in any other year from now on. It's just that you're only as good as your last result and that's why I feel this way. In fact a quick check on stats tells me I'm still way ahead on pike caught last year with an extra twenty thrown in and as for perch, though no pb this time around I've had a super year. It's just how you look at things I guess and no matter what I say to myself I'm still in the negative, low confidence mood which seems to be taking some beating. The only way to shake it is to get out and catch. Easier said than done.

So there it is. No other reason for lack of blog entries this last few months apart from having nothing to write about.